Monday, March 14, 2011
Late yesterday evening I finished the first draft of my WIP. I have started many projects in the past but never saw them through to completion, I always got distracted by new shiny ideas (ie- moving on to new things when the writing got hard). I expected this huge rush of emotions upon finishing my draft, but I really didn't feel that way. Sure, I'm glad and happy and excited, but I'm also scared and nervous.
My draft is finished at around 48,000 words. Yes I know that seems short, but I'm the type of writer who writes a skeletal first draft and then plumps it up during revisions and rewrites. There are probably still a couple of scenes/chapters that need to be written, but to be honest I could keep adding to this book for the rest of my life. At some point I had to call it and let it go.
Why am I scared and nervous, you ask? My writing is so personal to me. It's like putting this little piece of your soul, who you are, out there for the whole world to see (and criticize) and that scares me more than just about anything. I guess I'm afraid of the rejection, but I'm afraid to be accepted, too. What if people don't like it? What if people do like it? What if I'm expected to write something else just as good? (Not that it's good, it sucks right now!)
I read books by John Green and other contemporary writers and think, "I'll never be this good at story telling, why am I even writing when the market already has such amazing books in it?" At some point I have to start believing in myself, in the stories I tell and the characters I create. Yes, it may be bunk after the first draft, but I have never met an author who wrote a perfect, complete first draft.
All emo-ness aside, I really am excited to have this sucker finished. To say you're writing a book is one thing, but to say you've written a book is another matter entirely and I'm proud to say I've done the latter. Now it's time to put the petal to the metal and start with my revisions and rewrites. Can't wait to embark on this part of the journey and share it with all of you.
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